Potatoes. :D

I'm going to rant everything out here
if not i'll just die.

It seems like whether what you have done is right or wrong,
you will still get scolded anyway.
DOES IT MEAN THAT CUSTOMERS ARE ALWAYS RIGHT?!?!?!

NO!!!
these few days I kept getting scolded by customers no matter what i do.
I feel so irritated and sad everytime i get scolded even when i did nothing wrong.
arghhs.
so what if your air con break down?
you think only your air con is spoilt in singapore?
because the weather is so hot. and everybody's air con is breaking down!!!!!!!

arghhs hate it so much.
i just wished the weather will be better soon and i dont have to handle complaints.

Labels: work

how i wished today is a saturday!
but unfortunately it is still sunday.
i have to work tomorrow again

:(

getting more and more no life. everyday work work work.
no fun.
no life. :(

i have been opening my letter box for weeks!
and today i got a great surprise!
i got accepted by NTU school of biological science.
and its direct entry to 2nd year!
oh man!
so happy!!

misss youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

should or should not?
so tired to think.
i want to rest on a beach.

today is my rest day after working for 6 days.
then the cycle goes on again. another 6 days and 1 rest day.
if i work like this for a month, i will earn $1152.
now im like thinking, other people can work just 5 days and earn more than me.
why am i working so many days to earn such a lowwww $$$$.

ah. Why didn't i know that tp is hiring temp lab tech!
arghhs i also want to be one!
since i have in passion in science and i should do what i like.
rather than doing admin that is very boring.
you see, if i get to do what i like
this means more pay also and i'll be happier and not so grumpy.

you know i always nag and nag and nag because of work.
because its bored and stuff like that.
I think i should try to at least!

but one thing is that i feel bad because the people at the air con company are quite nice to me.
aiya just so sad la.
okay i think i will think about it and make my final decision tonight!
if not i will just stick to do admin!

so people if you got better lobang like jobs in life science,
can just inform me. thanks. haha

Labels: sunday

no money no work?
work = money.
a lot of money = a lot of work to do.
haha.

now.
i have been asked to work full day on saturdays.
not half day.
and on all saturdays.
wah. such long hours.
one week work 48 hours.
6 days week. oh man.
dont know to be happy or sad.
because today is the 4th day of the week, im alr so tired!
let alone say working for 6 days a week.

but one good thing is more work = more $$$$.
it's really bored to have lunch alone everyday.
and so limited choices.
:(

now my mindset is like work for CASH and not for experience.
I think i won't change job since the colleagues are quite nice.
esp. cindy. she taught me so many things so patiently!
just that im deprived of internet and everyday have to handle people at the counter.
sometimes mad people.
they just come in and scold you.
like ytd, people from the management came over.
i was so shocked because the boss and cindy wasn't around.
they came in yelling at me like its my fault to put the swing and park the car there?
wah lao. just my 3rd day i dont know anything ok.
i just hope no more mad people comes in like that anymore!

everyday i just complain and complain. haha.
now its like after i reach home, i dont really want to step out anymore.
the most i will go out for run!
other than that, my mind is being set to " oh man i dont want to work..."
and morning still the same mode and dragging myself to work..........
when i reached there it's not so bad.
just that i feel so happy after every hour pass.
hahaha. more and more $$$.

Labels: money, work

today was really quite bad.
my sandals spoiled when i started work not long.
and today because someone got a half day leave,
it was so busy. people keep calling and calling.
so have to pick up many phone calls.
some are really nice.
and with my kind of English standard,
i can't understand foreigner's English.
too chim. kept asking them to repeat and they got irritated.
sighs.
at that moment, I felt so stupid and useless because i can't even get this simple task down properly.

Because I am so new, I dont know so many things.
I have to go up and down.
It's really damn boring.
I'm deprived of internet. Really damn sian without internet.
:(

please give me encouragement to stay on to earn myself a laptop.
let me see.
if i work till end of this month, i earned about $720.
quite alot.
if i continue to work to end of next month, i can earn about $ 1600++
wah thats enough for a laptop.
but havent minus my fee for lunch and travel.
arghhs.
i really hope this week quickly ends.
because i got no motivation anymore.

actually my motivation for every week is to meet my bf.
everytime i anticipate to meet him.
you may think its stupid. but yah. i like it.
so now you see, i just met him today.
there goes my motivation.
EMPTIED.

I really wana go on a holiday at a beach resort.

Did i mention that i always find studying better than working?
working is always damn stressed?
studying is like you study for yourself. the most see teachers' face.
you do your questions wrongly, they will go through with you.
but working is like anything can happen lo.
you have to see your supervisor's face.
scared you do wrong things get scolded, deduct pay, fired.
I can say that I'm those kind of person who cannot take stress.
once there's abit of stress, i will try to run away from it.
I always run away from problems somehow.
thats why I can't work more than 3 days other than my attachment.
I always quit.
Hope this time I can work more than 3 days.
If i can work through tml, then i will talk about it.

I NEED INTERNET AT WORK.
:(
help me~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Labels: internet, sad, work

today is the first day of work.
well, dont know why i feel damn bored.
is it because it's the first day, i dont know anything yet? so i find it bored?
or is it because there is hardly anyone to talk to most of the time?
or is it no body eating lunch with me?
or is it there is no internet and the com is so old (windows 95)?
That place is really quite boring.

because most of the time i am at the reception counter where people might come in.
people hardly come in. usually they call to service their air con.
rest of the staffs are upstairs typing typing.
listening to FM.
i got nothing really much to do. basically just learning things and staring blankly.
ah. What i look forward to is lunch and home.

i guess working at TLL is really better.
hahaah.
windows vista plus internet can keep surfing.
open many tabs to pretend sourcing for scientific journals. haha.
so many books in library to read somemore.
arghhs. okay i guess i'm always complaining right?
always not contended with what i have!

some guys are already receiving their enlistment letters.
when will it be hc's turn?
actually sometimes i do feel sad when i think of him going into NS.
because i always feel that we dont spend enough time together and alot of things.
sighs.
I want to spend more time together before he gets in but i guessed it's quite hard since both of us are working now.
he works at night, I work in the day.
:(
I dont really know how to schedule the time.
aiya dont know la. no mood anymore.

Labels: NS, work

okay i have a few annoucements to make.
I have finally found a job!!!
a temporary admin assistant at kaki bukit.
it's really convenient. because the bus stop outside the work place has bus 5 , 15, 58 from pasir ris.
3 buses!
and there is also bus 87 which i can go to bedok to look for hc!
yay!
The lady who interviewed me was really nice.
Tomorrow will be my first day of work!!
yay!!
I hope to earn some bucks to get a laptop when I go to uni.

another thing is that,
I have received a letter of offer from NUS for their science( chemistry)
arghhhs.
I don't know to be happy or sad.
Because many people dont even have the opportunity to get into uni.
but i had it.
However, science (chemistry) was one of my last 2 choices if i remember correctly.
I think i will try to appeal for either life science or food science for NUS.
and arghhs I am still waiting for NTU's letter.
hopefully they will send it soon.................

Labels: annoucements

I just read a book that day.
and there is this character,
she measured the amount of love by number of hugs when she was a kid.

and I realised i do that too.
just wondering if anyone like me measured the amount of love by the number of hugs.
mayb as a kid, hugs to them is a form of affection and concern.
especially from their parents.
because as a kid , you're small and and you dont know anything.
In a foreign environment, you'll feel afraid.
and where there's hugs and your papa mama there to assure you it's safe,
you feel comforted.
there's security.
perhaps I am lack of some security. ahahaha

So is the amount of love really measured by number of hugs?
does it mean more hugs more love?
hmm.
to a certain extent it is,
you only hug the person you love and give your concern to.
you dont just anyhow hug anyone right? At least for me , No.
i dont just go around hugging people okay.

if love is not measured by number of hugs, what is it measured by?
its like there is no parameters.
like I love you 50ml, I love you 5 days.
no right? it's always I love you very much.
hugs, kisses, hold hands and every little things are acts of affection.
they arent to be used for measurement.
but it can be said that these acts of affection are required to make one feel loved!

so all in all,
Love can't really be measured.
But actions can be done for your loved one and always appreciate the other half.
if a partner doesn't even show signs of appreciation, it's like taking the other for granted.

Labels: love

oh man. okay i am bad.
just want to talk about dream again.
or rather nightmare.

that day i accidentally killed a snail and a lizard outside my house.
they were under this big piece of wood which i cannot see.
i just went to stand on it and yah they are dead.
oh man i was so sad when i realised i was the one who killed them.
was like so scared.

then yah that night.
what i had in my nightmare was,
SNAILS CRAWLING ALL OVER MY HEAD.
oh man. I remembered i was looking inside the mirror.
and i can see a few big ones with a few small ones crawling on my head!!!!
I was asking my mum to take them off my head.
but cannot.
very very bad dream man.

Labels: dreams, snails