Potatoes. :D

i used to hate you sometimes.
now i hate you every moment i see you.
every thing you do is so annoying.
and stop taking us for granted.
we are not obliged to help you,
and so, you are not even supposed to complain to others about us not helping you.
stop acting smart when you're not.
just shut up.

i feel so tired of keep sending resumes.
now
im on temp job assignment.
as receptionist for 3 days.
this wed, fri and next monday.
gonna be so bored.

since i agreed to work alr, can i reject?
well, still thinking.
just hope that my mood will change and be better and i wont find excuses to reject.
doing receptionist is quite boring in my opinion.
just sit there open door for people.
take down some notes.
wah. dont know la.

i have been at home for so many days.
lets see what i have did last week.
last mon - movie with hc.
tues - ikea with mum
wed - rot
thurs - city square
friday - rot
saturday - rot
sunday - rot

most likely today will also be rot.
i wished i had attachment now.
so i will be occupied and wont feel so sleepy.
and at least at my attachment i can see hc everyday.
okay i am being ridiculous.
all these wont happen.
perhaps in my dreams.
okay huiyi just shut up and stop all your nonsense

this is about me, myself and I.

For all of my life, there is always something i hate.
That is the indecisiveness in me.
I don't understand why i can't make decisions properly.
even if I have made a decision, I somehow hesitate and changed it again.
after that I just keep changing my mind and I get so irritated by it.
By then, I will be damn fed up and lost.
And at that time, I really feel like hugging someone.
I felt like a kid crying, wanting to run into the embrace of someone.
After 20 years, I have not grown up i guessed.

I just can't make decisions properly.
why!
or is it that I think too much?
like when I'm out for my meals,
esp at food center or food court,
I would have to walk around the whole place to think of what i want to eat.
And, when I decided on what I want, I hesitate again.

even when shopping,
yah I will hesitate.
which colour? what design? price?
then okay when I paid and get home,
sometimes I will regret and go back to change it.

now for this job being offered to me,
I am pondering again.
you may think I am stupid or what?
yes I am.
I have accepted the job and now hesitating again.
I HATE IT THIS WAY.
I CAN'T MAKE PROPER DECISIONS AT ALL!
:(

this indecisiveness is giving me headache.

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