Potatoes. :D

basically i cant sleep at this point of time.
thinking and thinking.
this is one of the only spaces i can pen my thoughts down.
my blog is like my friend.
i can say its my best friend, always there listening to me!
my best listening ear.
somehow, i feel better when i type out my thoughts and feelings.

sometimes i thought, am i really so stupid?
eh not really. studies aint that bad. mayb mind too simple.
but thats not stupid.
then why is it that im being called stupid.
i will say i wont anyhow use the word "stupid" on people.
its because it hurts when people use it on me and i wont want to hurt others with that.

i am going to sleep alr my blog.
byebye.

Labels: stupid

another week has passed.
this means that exams and sip are nearing.
exams or tests, im not that scared.
have dont know how many exams since young. lol

what i am scared is sip.
i dont know where im going.
i dont even know where i want to go

There are forms for application for some research institue like TLL.
but i went to look at website. the projects were like quite boring. haha.

in the end, i still didnt fill up all the forms.
so much hassle.

i've been thinking so much ever since i board bus 15 and got home today.
is it that whatever that i have done is always wrong?
i seriously cant judge what is right or wrong.
sometimes i dont even know what i did that is wrong.
in everyone's opinion, the definition of right or wrong is different.
if im really wrong, why is it that only now im told that im wrong.

i dont know what else to say.
perhaps everyone is different.
see everyone differently, react differently and accept each other differently.

listening ear please.

Labels: sip, wrong

hello i am back for blogging.
lol.

i have finally recovered from my flu and sorethroat. :)
have been ahhhh chooooo-ing and coughing so bad last week.
quite busy these few days.
cause there is 3 reports to be due next week!!
OMG!!!!
so difficult can.
search and search.
eyes like going to pop out alr la!
and there is last lecture quiz and rtech quiz next week!
:(

but one happy thing about this week is
LIN YOU JIA AND LIU LI YANG CONCERT!!!
the whole tcc hall was full.
ppl even have to sit on stairs.
i dont understand why they open this to public.
i can see so many uncles and aunties coming in.
this is meant to be a XIAO YUAN concert what!
haha aiya forget it la.
it was very enjoyable.
and i've never seen my idol, lin you jia, so high before.
he was like drunk or mayb abit sot sot.
so high, jumping all around , shaking his head.
and for liu li yang, her song jiu shi zhe yang keep replaying in my mind.
even at this moment, it is still playing in my head.

AND, i've
thought about something for these 2 days.
dont you all think that blog is a very contradicting thing?
i keep thinking why i blog and what i blog for.
1. i want to pen down my thoughts so i can somehow reflect?
2. i want to record things that has happened around me or to me, esp happy moments, so i can read next time ( mayb few more years later)
3. I scared i'll lose my memory one day
4. To give my own opinions
5. A place to turn to when im sad or mayb bored. haha

why i say blog is a very contradicting thing, its because..
its like a very personal thing to you, just like diary
but its on the internet and everyone can see it!
if its a very personal thing and very close to your heart,
you can say anything you want.
but its on the internet and everyone can see and you cant really say anything you want.

mayb thats why i keep changing my blog address and many still dont know about it except for han cheng. lol.
and i dont link anyone.
mayb in the past, i like ppl to view my blog.
but now im okay with it, just dont really like it.
cause i treat it more as personal space to me.
that is why i blogged

but i guess no one will be interested in reading my blog.
HAHA.

Labels: contradicting, yoga lin

wah. im like badly sick for the past few days.
like since saturday.
on friday, after we killed our rats, i went to gym with hc.
eh our class was like quite fast. we only took like 1 and half hour for whole class to finish with all the procedures.
the rat like sort of move when we try to do blood collection from eye.
so scary la. it also keep salivating and tearing.
:(
in the end, still managed to collect some blood.
sorry rat no. 59!

oh yes. mentioning about going to gym.
there are sure mirrors in the gym.
so i open my mouth and look at my throat.
there is like this ball on the left side of my throat bulging out!
then i asked hc whether he has it too. but he doesnt have it.
then next day which is saturday!
i fall sick!!
throat was abit itchy but nose was like running tap.
i took some med and tot i'll be okay soon.
but sunday, its like still the same.
so went to see doc.
get some antibiotics.

then ytd, i went to school.
i cannot stop coughing and sneezing.
i got so much mucus inside my nose can.
the air con in sch was like free of charge. haha.
so cold!!
and even though i drank alot of water, my mouth is still very dry.
i decided to go home after my bpt tut.
ended up, kok also wanted to go home.
and on our way to whitesands,
we met amanda.
all skipping bpt lectures.
i guess u tin lin must be very sad. haha.

oh yes. i went home and slept for like 3 or 4 hours.
still feel very bad.
once i cough, my chest will ache a little.
i went to the mirror and look at my throat.
wah. the ball on the left side like damn swollen and on the right side, something is bulging out!!!
my god la.
:(

but today i guess i am better.
HOPEFULLY LA.
haha.

Labels: flu, rat, sick, sorethroat

it has been so long so long.
cause i really dont know what to blog about.
my life's like the same everyday.
school school.
haha and whatever happen, cant rmb that much.
short term memory eh.
hahaa.
as im typing my entry out,
im stuffing tissue paper into my nose.
i guess im sick. :(
!!!!
i just exercised ytd and today i am sick!!!!
angry!!!!

oh yeah.
that day when i went running at night
i almost died.
i keep sprinting then i jog and sprint.
did it for a few rounds.
i was okay when i was going home.
BUT when at home, wah my vision starts to get dim.
everything like becoming dark.
keep panting.
i just lie down.
and when i tot i was okay,
i feel like like vomitting.
after i vomit abit, my vision gets dim again!!
my god.
then my stomach very pain. i go and LS.
but my vision is still the same.
after i LS, my limbs really got no strength.
continue to keep panting and close my eyes.
then i shout to my sister for help.
if not i'm alr dead.

sighs.
omg my dental clinic just called me to remind me about dental review tml.
and yes, i broke my retainers weeks again.
i asked the nurse how much is it to remake the retainers again.
she told me its around $500?!?!?!?!
what!!!!!!
omg.
so sad la. so ex.
dont know how many clothes i can buy.
:(

Labels: sad, sick