knee keeps aching.
for weeks already.
what to do?
Thursday, July 26, 2007 @
@
多少眼泪 都无所谓
我闭上眼睛 不能入睡
只希望你 给我一些安慰
have been so busy and tired these few days.
rain rain rain.
makes me so cold.
hais.
like im falling sick like that.
hais.
was so damn fed up on monday night.
in fact, i've been so moody for days or weeks already.
sometimes i just hate to act like im so happy when im not.
its like being a poser.
so tired can.
but once i start to show how i feeling,
people around me just keep asking me whats happening.
no body understand la.
just couldnt take it anymore. mayb i should just cry out loud again to release myself.
hais.
okay on monday night i was rushing to prepare for mgen ppt next morning.
only slept at 2 okay.
already in bad mood, so tired, got things to do.
ppl like terris just come and pissed me off.
this is not the first time okay.
then other ppl like not doing their part for the project.
theres always ppl like that.
damn fed up la.
then the presentation was screwed up.
last min work. only me and amanda worked so hard.
in the end, its a disappointment again.
nvm, its just another disappointments in life.
i have so many of it already.
too many to count.
just realised i havent have my fav fish and chips ever since i've recovered.
it has been weeks okay.
forget it. it's nothing anyway.
nobody cares.
just too numb.
i can only blame myself for not being understanding at all.
forget it.
这距离 痛得我不能呼吸
我闭上眼睛 不能入睡
只希望你 给我一些安慰
have been so busy and tired these few days.
rain rain rain.
makes me so cold.
hais.
like im falling sick like that.
hais.
was so damn fed up on monday night.
in fact, i've been so moody for days or weeks already.
sometimes i just hate to act like im so happy when im not.
its like being a poser.
so tired can.
but once i start to show how i feeling,
people around me just keep asking me whats happening.
no body understand la.
just couldnt take it anymore. mayb i should just cry out loud again to release myself.
hais.
okay on monday night i was rushing to prepare for mgen ppt next morning.
only slept at 2 okay.
already in bad mood, so tired, got things to do.
ppl like terris just come and pissed me off.
this is not the first time okay.
then other ppl like not doing their part for the project.
theres always ppl like that.
damn fed up la.
then the presentation was screwed up.
last min work. only me and amanda worked so hard.
in the end, its a disappointment again.
nvm, its just another disappointments in life.
i have so many of it already.
too many to count.
just realised i havent have my fav fish and chips ever since i've recovered.
it has been weeks okay.
forget it. it's nothing anyway.
nobody cares.
just too numb.
i can only blame myself for not being understanding at all.
forget it.
这距离 痛得我不能呼吸
Sunday, July 22, 2007 @
内疚+ 害怕 = 难过 + 很乱
confusing hor?
im in no mood to study for anything.
nothing gets into my head.
oh. just feel like giving the rest of the quizzes up!
just like what i did for the mgen lab quiz.
after blogging, its either i sleep or i go and study.
lets just see what happens.
and why does it keep raining?
it just makes me so so cold.
hais.
confusing hor?
im in no mood to study for anything.
nothing gets into my head.
oh. just feel like giving the rest of the quizzes up!
just like what i did for the mgen lab quiz.
after blogging, its either i sleep or i go and study.
lets just see what happens.
and why does it keep raining?
it just makes me so so cold.
hais.
Saturday, July 21, 2007 @
waffles during pct lab break. =)
my biochem project. =)
Callus plating
Baicai seedlings!
<3
@
im online so early!
cause i forgot to blog yesterday and i got some research to do now!
AIMM report and MGEN presentation.
havent done anything about it.
was so damn tired this week.
during my break yesterday, i went running with wengtat in school.
i've really lost all my fitness and stamina.
during the 2nd round, i almost can't take it
keep seeing black black things.
but i stayed on to at least finish the 3rd round.
so its just like 1.2km and i'm like dying.
guess i have to run everyweek to keep train my body up
more rounds next week. JIA YOU!
feel so better after running.
be it physically or my mood.
=)
cause i forgot to blog yesterday and i got some research to do now!
AIMM report and MGEN presentation.
havent done anything about it.
was so damn tired this week.
during my break yesterday, i went running with wengtat in school.
i've really lost all my fitness and stamina.
during the 2nd round, i almost can't take it
keep seeing black black things.
but i stayed on to at least finish the 3rd round.
so its just like 1.2km and i'm like dying.
guess i have to run everyweek to keep train my body up
more rounds next week. JIA YOU!
feel so better after running.
be it physically or my mood.
=)
Thursday, July 19, 2007 @
OH.
disappointments in life again.
haha.
I GOT SACKED!
first lesson and got sacked.
actually i knew it while i was teaching the child la.
i asked her if its her first time having tuition.
she said no. she has many tutors before me.
she said something like " my mother say got one always sick sick sick cannot come. another one stay too far. cannot. the other one too young. the next one not so good..........."
then i knew it. i'll be sacked. haha
went home and received call from agent.
ms tan was telling me that the parent said im not suitable and she doesnt want to pay up.
but ms tan is going to make her pay cause there's no free trial.
i called the parent up and she was like damn fed up to arrange the time for me to collect the $$.
hais. like got conned like that.
lol.
at first she was like saying that her expectations not high. just want her child to pass cause she's like damn weak.
i went through all her school work.
and it was like not bad lo. she got 25/30 for some test.
and her work was damn consistent okay.
and now im like not suitable?
lol
just wanted to earn some bucks to pay for my bills and other stuffs.
so i wont rely so much on my parents. i dont want to live fully off my folks.
haiya.
forget about it man.
life is always full of disappointments.
perhaps i was expecting too much.
mayb expecting too much from you too.
disappointments in life again.
haha.
I GOT SACKED!
first lesson and got sacked.
actually i knew it while i was teaching the child la.
i asked her if its her first time having tuition.
she said no. she has many tutors before me.
she said something like " my mother say got one always sick sick sick cannot come. another one stay too far. cannot. the other one too young. the next one not so good..........."
then i knew it. i'll be sacked. haha
went home and received call from agent.
ms tan was telling me that the parent said im not suitable and she doesnt want to pay up.
but ms tan is going to make her pay cause there's no free trial.
i called the parent up and she was like damn fed up to arrange the time for me to collect the $$.
hais. like got conned like that.
lol.
at first she was like saying that her expectations not high. just want her child to pass cause she's like damn weak.
i went through all her school work.
and it was like not bad lo. she got 25/30 for some test.
and her work was damn consistent okay.
and now im like not suitable?
lol
just wanted to earn some bucks to pay for my bills and other stuffs.
so i wont rely so much on my parents. i dont want to live fully off my folks.
haiya.
forget about it man.
life is always full of disappointments.
perhaps i was expecting too much.
mayb expecting too much from you too.
Wednesday, July 18, 2007 @
biochem-ed after school.
almost done with the assignment.
yes!
omg. so many things to do.
this week i have csas language test, background info ( to be submitted) and mgen lab quiz.
next week worse.
mon- fpath tut quiz. tues - mgen presentation wed- biochem assignment due date. aimm lecture quiz. aimm report due date.
fri- mgen quiz.
like shit la. lol
today i received a call from ms tan.
yay! finally got an assignment.
the tuition will start tml. twice per week.
was browsing thru my sis's p5 textbook. so damn difficult can.
haha.
really hope that everything will turn out to be fine.
=)
almost done with the assignment.
yes!
omg. so many things to do.
this week i have csas language test, background info ( to be submitted) and mgen lab quiz.
next week worse.
mon- fpath tut quiz. tues - mgen presentation wed- biochem assignment due date. aimm lecture quiz. aimm report due date.
fri- mgen quiz.
like shit la. lol
today i received a call from ms tan.
yay! finally got an assignment.
the tuition will start tml. twice per week.
was browsing thru my sis's p5 textbook. so damn difficult can.
haha.
really hope that everything will turn out to be fine.
=)
Tuesday, July 17, 2007 @
just another normal day in school.
mgen followed by pct lectures and then apel.
then did biochem project for awhile before i left for amk for my dental appointment.
was sitting in the bus.
thinking so much.
i just can't stop thinking of things when im alone.
have been asking myself so many questions.
sometimes i dont know what to do.
i just cry and cry.
perhaps it just makes me feel better each time i cry.
hais
so many things that i wanted to tell you.
how happy i am. how sad i am. what i did.
i wanted to know what were you exactly doing. how're you feeling.
just everything about you
But, there's just no time to do all these.
no interaction. just a few hello and byebye each day.
It's not that i dont want to call you or msg you.
i just dont know when's the right time to do it.
i dont want to disturb you or bother you when you're busy.
Then all these just drags and drags.
Day after day,
then it seems like i've forgotten what i wanted to say.
i've become so lost each time i see you.
感觉好像越来越陌生
距离好像越来越远
可以不要这样了吗？
mgen followed by pct lectures and then apel.
then did biochem project for awhile before i left for amk for my dental appointment.
was sitting in the bus.
thinking so much.
i just can't stop thinking of things when im alone.
have been asking myself so many questions.
sometimes i dont know what to do.
i just cry and cry.
perhaps it just makes me feel better each time i cry.
hais
so many things that i wanted to tell you.
how happy i am. how sad i am. what i did.
i wanted to know what were you exactly doing. how're you feeling.
just everything about you
But, there's just no time to do all these.
no interaction. just a few hello and byebye each day.
It's not that i dont want to call you or msg you.
i just dont know when's the right time to do it.
i dont want to disturb you or bother you when you're busy.
Then all these just drags and drags.
Day after day,
then it seems like i've forgotten what i wanted to say.
i've become so lost each time i see you.
感觉好像越来越陌生
距离好像越来越远
可以不要这样了吗？
Monday, July 16, 2007 @
很多话
但是却又说不出口
im not afraid of happy endings.
just afraid that my life wont go that way.
但是却又说不出口
im not afraid of happy endings.
just afraid that my life wont go that way.
Saturday, July 14, 2007 @
i believe everyone will have this feeling for at least a period of time.
for me? maybe im always feeling that way. haha.
the feeling of drifting apart with your friends.
you all dont do things together anymore.
you all got lesser topics to talk about.
and, yeah. soon. nothing to talk about.
becoming hi-bye friends.
but, what to do?
everyone has their own lives.
they have their own activities.
cca studies other friends. so many things
nobody has any right to interfere in all these.
i was a little sad at first.
and ya lor. get used to it already.
for me? maybe im always feeling that way. haha.
the feeling of drifting apart with your friends.
you all dont do things together anymore.
you all got lesser topics to talk about.
and, yeah. soon. nothing to talk about.
becoming hi-bye friends.
but, what to do?
everyone has their own lives.
they have their own activities.
cca studies other friends. so many things
nobody has any right to interfere in all these.
i was a little sad at first.
and ya lor. get used to it already.
Friday, July 13, 2007 @
omg. first time online in this week.
busy with projects.
waiting for bus to get home is a nuisance la.
esp. at the end of the day when you're so damn tired, wanting to go home soon and the bus just never comes.
i still rmb on tues.
how long amanda and i waited for that bus 15.
so many buses came. three 23 just come together.
we were like wah lao lo.
lol.
all the buses just keep coming except for 15.
okay then came 15 and it was damn packed.
continue waiting again. we started waitin at like 1845?
i reached home at about 8 plus. going to 9.
so damn tired lo.
projects, quizzes, lab tests are all piling up.
like no life. like shit. like whatever.
when i have nothing to do i complain.
when i have things to do i complain too.
so damn sian la.
everyday i just do the same stuffs.
nobody to complain to.
eh no. i complains to my mum everyday.
haha.
sometimes i just talk to myself.
aiya hp inbox has beeen so empty nowadays.
can someone be nice and fill my inbox with messages?
haha.
everyone's so busy. i think worse than me.
i still got time to complain but no time for them.
SOMETIMES being alone can be nice too.
getting used to this kind of life already.
busy with projects.
waiting for bus to get home is a nuisance la.
esp. at the end of the day when you're so damn tired, wanting to go home soon and the bus just never comes.
i still rmb on tues.
how long amanda and i waited for that bus 15.
so many buses came. three 23 just come together.
we were like wah lao lo.
lol.
all the buses just keep coming except for 15.
okay then came 15 and it was damn packed.
continue waiting again. we started waitin at like 1845?
i reached home at about 8 plus. going to 9.
so damn tired lo.
projects, quizzes, lab tests are all piling up.
like no life. like shit. like whatever.
when i have nothing to do i complain.
when i have things to do i complain too.
so damn sian la.
everyday i just do the same stuffs.
nobody to complain to.
eh no. i complains to my mum everyday.
haha.
sometimes i just talk to myself.
aiya hp inbox has beeen so empty nowadays.
can someone be nice and fill my inbox with messages?
haha.
everyone's so busy. i think worse than me.
i still got time to complain but no time for them.
SOMETIMES being alone can be nice too.
getting used to this kind of life already.
Sunday, July 01, 2007 @
im always struggling within myself.
contradicting myself.
i just thought that it might be my fault.
have been thinking alot. and not wanting to tell anyone.
maybe its because i dont want others to think theres something wrong with me.
sometimes i cant even understand myself.
what'm i thinking?
perhaps i'm just not myself.
i just tired of this kind of feeelings la.
louis said " be happy. like that pass time faster."
true.
just that when im alone, how to be happy and pass time faster?
hais. forget it. im always asking myself questions.
and there seem to be no answers to them forever.
我不要变得小小的
找不到自我
好象被什么人放在口袋
没天空
contradicting myself.
i just thought that it might be my fault.
have been thinking alot. and not wanting to tell anyone.
maybe its because i dont want others to think theres something wrong with me.
sometimes i cant even understand myself.
what'm i thinking?
perhaps i'm just not myself.
i just tired of this kind of feeelings la.
louis said " be happy. like that pass time faster."
true.
just that when im alone, how to be happy and pass time faster?
hais. forget it. im always asking myself questions.
and there seem to be no answers to them forever.
我不要变得小小的
找不到自我
好象被什么人放在口袋
没天空