Potatoes. :D

yawns. im dead tired.

just finished rushing through my 3 essays for social studies.

im dead. DEAD!

sec 4 life is so stressful! worse than sec 3.

sec 3 wasnt so bad after all.

sec 4 is like everyday tests and teachers are going through the chapters at such a speed.

i wana sleep!

im desperate for some sleep.

studying makes me turn crazy.

To speak the truth, it's me who couldnt concentrate during lessons.

sadded for like 3 days?

this is the 4th day.

went to school and just stared at teacher.

lucky there's no english and maths today,

i swear i'll go crazy after that.

oh yea. im sadded.

so long.

just becuz of something,

and i keep imagining things.

images keep zooming in and out of my mind.

such things migh not happen,

but there's always a possibility for strange things to happen?

i dont think i stand a chance after all.

- knocks my head on the wall -

ber's not online. no one can help me now.

now he and she are online.

and im sure they're talking to each other.

i can just sit here and do nothing.

no. i sit here and anyhow thought of stuffs.

yea. have funny and weird weird dreams which i never had before.

you wont know how disappointed and how deep my heart sank when i see you mentioning about her. my heart sank deep. deep deep till i dunno where.

no more hope. i dunno. i really dunoo.

nevermind. i think i'll just be someone looking at you by your side.

keep showing my mood for today.

threw tantrums again.

i wish i wont do this anymore.

vent all my angers and unhappiness on volleyball.

yes i did today.

i think im feeling much better after my trainings.

it's not as bad as what i was yesterday.

trainings. yea trainings.

basically all of us were slacking.

too dead to move after one whole day of school.

school just has to end so late.

i see no point in ending so late.

i rather train the whole day, rather than have lessons.

it's much more better!

i wana train hard, harder and even harder for the coming nationals.

god bless us.

jia you!!!!!!!!!

just hopes my mood gets better.

feel like smashing or spiking someone's head now.

i think im on the verge of going crazy.

keep imagining things that are useless , pointless

no point thinking so much,

but my heart and mind just want to.

what can i do.

im stuggling within myself.

lots of stuffs. why am i like dat.

- knocks my head on the wall -

- knock knock-

i think im just being stupid.

- knocks again-

i feel like taking some volleyballs keep serving non stop now.

i dunno why.

volleyball always helps me when im not in a good mood.

vent my anger and unhappiness on it.

the ball will just go where i want it to be.

there's no place for me to serve now.

im so miserable.

ahhhs.

can i stop imagining things!!!!!!!