Tuesday, September 28, 2004 @
BLUE - breathe easy
Cruel to the eye
I see the way he makes you smile
Cruel to the eye
Watching him hold what used to be mine
Why did I lie?
What did I walk away to find
Oooohhh...why...oooh -- why...
CHORUS
I... can't breathe easy
Can't sleep at might
Till you're by my side
No I... can't breathe easy
I can't dream yet another dream
Without you lying next to me
There's no air
Curse me inside
For every word that caused you to cry
Curse me inside
I won't forget, no i won't baby,
I don't know why (don't know why)
I left the one i was looking to find
Ooh -- why...ooooh, why -- why...
CHORUS
Out of my mind
Nothing makes sense anymore
I want you back in my life
That's all I'm breathing for
Ooooooohhhhh -- tell me why
Oh won't you tell me why
I can't dream yet another dream
Without you lying by my side
There's no air
I... can't breathe easy
Can't sleep at night
Till you're by my side
Coz i can't breathe easy
I can't dream yet another dream
Without you lying next to me
There's no air
There's no air.
just finished with my mask.
lolx.
not bad la.
quite nice one.
mayb next time i shall try again.
tomolo going to study!
mrs chan was absent today!
but we still have to do that stupid letter to the editor,
which mrs chan didnt really go through.
hit kenneth lots of times today.
lolx.. cuz he snatched yilun paper!
i kept imitating the way mrs chan speaks.
haha.. it was so damn funny!
i imagining how she speaks chinese in that manner!
chinese test was quite ok lars.
except for the compre!
passage's understand-able but not the questions.
i sort of seen this passage from the newspaper before!
was released early for afternoon programme this afternoon
2.15!
so early!
first time!
only lin lao shi will let us leave early!
she's just too nice!
not like the rest -_-||| lolx.
after sch , went to burger king.
i look at xueying's files.
she has so many things in her eng file!
that's not very fair!
they always model answers!
we dun have!
so many notes!
im going to photocopy from her! everything.. lolx
mayb physics too!
after that saw melissa!
she told me she's sick. she want to come to 3e2!
hahaha melissa! MUST TAKE CARE!
heehee
tuition is still ok lars.
mr chok still so lame.
he was saying that i can be an air stewardess next time.
kept asking if i want to work for S.I.A
lolx.
im so tanned. how to be one?
whiten myself? lolx
Shaun kept comparing his sch to hai sing.
he was telling the rest of the boys
" wah lau! you know my school lose to hai sing in the ranking!! wah lau!! so lousy!!! neighbourhood school can win us !"
lolx. sort of like insulting hsc.
well, dunman sec's not bad..
but hsc can be as good or better = P
den mr chuk was saying " if there's no me , there wont be you all !"
shaun says " huh! you mean you and my mother has an affair? my father is not my real father lar! "
lolx.
he's just a joker and is very very lame!
chuk just kept moo-ing in class.
lolx!!
i tink i better go start with my hw right now
it's quite late!
Monday, September 27, 2004 @
Utada hikaru
simple and clean
When you walk away
You don't hear me say please
Oh baby, don't go
Simple and clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight
It's hard to let it go
You're giving me too many things
Lately you're all I need
You smiled at me and said,
Don't get me wrong I love you
But does that mean I have to meet your father?
When we are older you'll understand
What I meant when I said "No,
I don't think life is quite that simple"
When you walk away
You don't hear me say please
Oh baby, don't go
Simple and clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight
It's hard to let it go
The daily things
that keep us all busy
Are confusing me that's when you came to me and said
"Wish i could prove i love you but does that mean i have to walk
on water when we are older you will understand that's it's enough
when i say so and maybe something are that simple"
When you walk away
You don't hear me say please
Oh baby, don't go
Simple and clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight
It's hard to let it go
Hold me
Whatever lies beyond this morning
Is a little later on
Regardless of warnings the future doesn't scare me at all
Nothing's like before
When you walk away
You don't hear me say please
Oh baby, don't go
Simple and clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight
It's hard to let it go
Hold me
Whatever lies beyond this morning
Is a little later on
Regardless of warnings the future doesn't scare me at all
Nothing's like before
When you walk away
You don't hear me say please
Oh baby, don't go
Simple and clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight
It's hard to let it go
Hold me
Whatever lies beyond this morning
Is a little later on
Regardless of warnings the future doesn't scare me at all
Nothing's like before
yeepee.. went to whitesands just now
study with yilun
we were talking crap!
gossiping!!
dun tink i did study.
wahahaha.. so fed up with all those tuition amaths questions!
I HATE AMATHS!
I HATE TUITION!
i have bout 3 more lessons left.
TOLERANCE!
school wasnt too bad today.
just packed with lots of work to do!
history lesson is getting more interesting!
the topic!
world war 2!!
wooohooo!! Germany lost! wahaha.
after recess, while going up to the hall,
weyzi and zhangyao were indirectly suan-ing yingying.. lolx.
the look on yingying's face is so damn funny!
she wrote a love letter to tan fei?
lolx.. quite impossible! but seemed to be quite true to me.
when in hall, found out from 3e3 that she wrote a letter to wilson!
love letter.
kaox. at first tan fei den wilson.
very er xin lo!
i think the whole level knows what happen!
after lunch break , in hall , the boys behind were planning to shout wilson when ying ying comes in!
she didnt care.
wahaha.
but it's so funny.
everyone's laughing!
During assembly , there's quizzes, they kept sabo-ing yingying.
ying2 or y2?
haha.
every question , yingying!!
tan fei and wilson actually quite poor thing lars.
pity them. lolx
Sunday, September 26, 2004 @
sunday!!!!
can relax!
wooohooo!
had cip yesterday again!
wah so fun!
we have different names lo.
like peishi , the garlic girl.
eelen housekeeper.
haha.
me in charge of calling people by usin my phone.
den yilun water girl!
planted lots of stuffs like coriander , balsam , lime!!!
pluck the limes.. try to get the seeds out.
ended with my hands so wet and sticky,
den i go play with soil.
so wet , like mud like dat.
wahaha.. so fun.
stupid tingwei!
keep spraying water at me!
i am not a plant!
i wipe my mud on him.
lolx.
after a while.. he came and spray water at me again.
went back.. spray at him..
ended up he throw bricks at me!
xiao di!! pain lehx!
after that , we go pluck grass.
pluck and pluck.
den spenser came.
helped me pluck
we have a talk on " someone"
*secret*
after cip, went home.
quickly changed.
den went out with family to bugis!
you can find lots of mooncake and lantern stalls there!
mum bought that kind of teochew mooncake.
quite nice.
outside its so crispy while inside so soft , yam i tink.
i tink i going to ask her buy again.
bought a new bag!
bought a new pair of slippers!
bought a new pair of sch shoes!
i just realised yilun and i bought the same shoes!
north star~
woooohooo so qiao lo
i FINALLY bought a new pair of sch shoes,
many people were commenting on it.
wahaha.
yilun FINALLY updated her blog!
FINALLY!..
i think i better go off to complete my homework and start studying!
exams just bout 2 weeks away..
Friday, September 24, 2004 @
bout 2 more weeks to the end of the year exams.
worried man.
haven touch my books.
mr amran hasnt been coming to school for days.
really worried with my history and maths.
bought a history guide book from the bookshop today
hey! auntie gave me discount.
good.
usually change place and sit beside samantha
well , ms yeap accidentally saw us changing our places.
got angry.
i think everyone should change their seats every term.
so that everyone can get to each other better.
and the bond between our classmates will be stronger? lolx
i dunno.
just hated sitting there.
so damn hot.
drained all my energy.
headache.
cant study when sitting there.
mayb got to get mum to write a letter to change my seats!
sian.
this year's like passes so fast.
coming to the end of the year quite soon.
my mood like still in january like that.
weather hasnt been good too.
mayb dropping out of the tuition for amaths and emaths after the exams
no money anymore.
i guess i have to find some cheaper tuition centres.
haix.
i think some people should actually change their attitude.
they should really change if they dun want others to commend on them.
you cant expect people to like you when you just anyhow shout for no reason?
shouldnt be so rude.
cutting into people's conversation.
hate this kind of people man. though i do that sometimes.
lolx.
shouldnt just keep complaing that people hates you.
mayb should tolerate sometimes?
tolerance!
by complaining , actually makes more people hate you or even deeper.
complaining doesnt do any help.
well , hope that person will change for good.
and recently.. found some people glaring at my gang la.
wah lau bu shuang is it?
lolx
so nice to see mehx?
look what look.
if see them glaring at us again , better watch out lo.
shall make sure all your eyes pa jiao!
CAPNET had been dragging for so long!
haix!
people had changed.
some become more rude.
they take you as an enemy though they USED TO be very nice to you.
just scream at you
yelling at you
when you told them nicely that time's out.
too bad,
people dun appreciate lars.
even if dun appreciate , cant just anyhow yell lo.
so suck de!
lolx.
Sunday, September 19, 2004 @
suddenly , there's lots of people tagging on my board.
great.
haha.
still got abit of headache now.
hmm went to CIP yesterday.
fun!
though its quite tiring la.
plucking all the grass.
chang-co the soil.. wahaha.. we look like gardeners!
while plucking the grass,
discovered many organisms.
Earthworms, centerpide , some black colour small snakes or worms? and a lizard!
well, whenever we see the centerpide
zi yee wants to kill it.
lolx.. chop it into half..
quite disgusting.
whenever we see something ,
we just stepped on it.
keep stepping and jumping on it.
screaming all about.
wahaha.. had lots of fun..
after CIP ,
was so damn hungry.
went to the newly-renovated 24 hours coffee shop with huiqi and xueying.
food there wasnt too bad.
quite nice and cheap.
weeheee!
after that went to ah qi house.
she has a parrot.
looks cute.
but dun get near it.
wahaha.
huiqi tries to put it on my shoulder.
but end up ,
my face getting bitten by the parrot.
wahahaha.
so er xin lo.
the parrot very cute la.
tot i going to harm it den want attack me.
den went to her room.
lolx.
we covered the parrot with her bro's blanket.
dun let it out.
this is a chance for revenge!
i am so evil!! muahahaahaha
well , i still got bitten when it's cover with the blanket.
can say it's quite suay.
haha.
her bro so clever lo , chungcheng high.
haha
his class photo is nice.
the fun shot! look so special. like concave mirror like dat.
special effect one. wahaha.
not like our school one.
wahaha.. so fun lo yesterday.
Friday, September 17, 2004 @
had chinese oral just now.
lolx.. kept stammering
first time i did this in my chinese oral.
i used to be very confident for my chinese oral.
not now..
dunno why.
conversation wasnt that bad.
it was the reading part that i suck.
think it's going to pull all my marks down!
nvm.. it's all over..
what can i do?
kill the teacher mehx?
yay sylvester sim got in!!!
yay!! didnt waste my votes.
he's so damn cute.
woohhoooo..
my idol!!!
sylvester sim jia you!!!!!
think im going to vote for him like siaox in the finals
lolx
so damn crazy.. wahahaaha
DIE HARD SYLVESTER FAN
he has his hair cut
and he smile!
whahaaha
smiling does alot of help.. hmm
mayb i should try too.
i look dao sometimes..
lolx
yesterday
was chased by crows
2nd time being attacked
samantha's always the one.
crow likes her so much.
she go imitate the crow somemore..
kaozz
attract the crows.
we just scream and ran
didnt even watch our way.
in the end,
samanatha fell down.
this teaches us a lesson
no eating when you are on the way to whitesands..
Wednesday, September 15, 2004 @
yay.. finally done with the new skin!
yahoo!!
feeling much more better today
or esle i have to go for x - ray
but still havin abit of headache
i hate to eat panadols!!!
hate it hate it hate it!
bernie has told me before that it takes 5 years for ya liver
to clear a panadol!
that day onwards ,
i hated panadol so much..
wahahaha.. abit crazy.
no choice i still have to take it.
went to school today.
wahaha.. amaths
lost in amaths
2 days absence, ms yeap has already done 1 chapter
i better read and practise on my own first
or esle i wont be catch up with the rest
school wasnt too bad.
haha.
think i manage to finish all the work i need to do.
except that i didnt bring my chinese.
got back result slips.
failed 2 subjects.
i passed my english
failed amaths and humanities.
expected.
i want to pass my amaths!!!!
pe lesson was quite bored
cuz i didnt really play.
wasnt feeling so well.
cant look at light ,
i get giddy easily.
haha
sometimes i really think ,
where has the huiyi who is so strong gone to?
im like so weak right now.
get sick so easily.
i may appear to be like quite strong,
but im not , physically or mentally.
im always mentally weak.
very very weak.
no confidence in whatever i do.
yesterday's tuition wasnt too bad too
mr chuk was as lame as ever.
as he was writing the solutions for the maths revision,
he was saying
" if you have any questions , dont hesitate to ask me. we are very kind.
we are very patient. we are here to help you. we are not sacarstic."
that's quite funny.. whaah
chuk chuk!! his nickname wahaha
though he very lame la.
his lessons are great.
i understood every single thing he taught.
one of the best teachers i considered.
shaun and the boys were knocking at the wall.
the teacher next door was so damn irritated,
came in , shouted at us.
mr chuk was quite shock.. wahaha..
sam says he's like wearing the same shirt as last week.
well, didnt notice!
was talking to melissa online.
we were thinking of doing the tuo diao song for next year talent time
wahahaha.. mayb we'll get the volleyball girls.. lolx
it's the last year.. mayb can do something special bahx
wahaha
tong tong tuo diao tuo diao! tuo tuo tuo tuo!!!!!!!
Monday, September 13, 2004 @
didnt go to sch today
tomolo too
i dunno
went to see a doc today
nothing's wrong with my blood pessure
if i dun get better these 2 days
i will have to go for a x ray
dunno what will happen
feeling sort of scared
haix
people say i look quite pale now
oh my godness.
why like dat?
what has gone wrong?
im really worried
lots of homework..
exams coming soon
and im like dat
what if during exams im like dat?
retain?
nonononono!!!
Saturday, September 11, 2004 @
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why youre so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I dont want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms
@
wah having a great headache now
nowadays i get headache everyday
giddy!
my head is bursting!!!!!
feel like vomiting
is this a really 1 week holiday for me?
well it's better den nothing
haha
sentosa trip wasnt too bad
had beach volleyball
many in our class can play volleyball.
mayb we shall have an interclass volleyball
and 3e2 will win.. wohoooo
wahaaha..
headache headache!!!!!
well tink i better go rest now
gona see a doctor soon...
find out what's wrong with me
mayb anaemia.. ha?
Friday, September 03, 2004 @
im feelin so damn terrible right now
guilt
stressed
i dunno why
perhaps no one can understand how i feel
everyone knows im out of that stupid team
no offence to anyone
does it mean that if im the better player in the team,
i must be in THAT team?
is it ?
other people were better than me
but why wont they in?
mayb in the first place ,
i shouldnt be in.
i shouldnt have gone for the second selection
but if i didnt turn up
i wouldnt have know liang tong
wouldnt have know valerie
they are very nice people
who can sort of understand how i feel.
but it still sucks
wasnt informed that the date was changed for the second selection
until someone called me.
and guessed what i did?
i just reached home.
and i had to just rush out ,
taking cab there.
worrying how serious will it be if im late or something.
called samanatha.. lucky she was there for me when i needed her.
she's a great fren indeed
had to go for training there every week
well people dont stay that far ,
but i do!
from pasir ris to yio chu kang ,
it's bout 1 hour plux trip.
when i got there,
what did i do?
people might think it's training.
what did i actually do?
i think toleration.
all i did was tolerate.
people shout at me.
i hate people to yell or tolerate at me.
ok i tolerate.
wasnt really enjoying training.
tolerate.
so damn lonely.
tolerate.
all i did was tolerate!
was sad enough to be selected without liang tong in.
everyone were expecting me to play well.
but i cant.
i dun understand why i cant perform unless im in sch.
mayb im too stressed out there.
my studies is another factor.
i had failed bout 6 subjects.
how can i be not stressed and sad?
how?
can anyone tell me?
school training is tough enough for me to cope.
i cant cope!
stop forcing me
and tinking it's all my fault.
i disgraced the school ok?
im kicked out of the team.
they just think that im irresponsible.
quiting without telling anyone.
but can they understand how i feel?
miss lim says.. im playing for hai sing
and not for myself.
but i feel what's the point of playing so hard when i cant take this kind of stress
what's the point?
she dun understand me , neither does mr njoo.
they dont know the situation well enough
they dont know it well enough to say me..
they dunno how i feel.
whatever you all want to say , i know i disgrace the school
but im not rude during any trainings
i dun have any disciplinary problems.
you all sacked me is just becuz of my attendance
now i only want to concentrate on my own school team.
i really want to.
whenever people talks to me bout combined sch nowadays
i will just burst out and cry
like today,
i had been tinking so hard ,
how to face ms lim
how to face mr njoo
im feeling really stressed.
but do they understand?
im feeling alot of pressure from them.
forcing me to do things i dun wan to
why.
why must it be me.
what do u all want from me? please tell me?
would you like to see me getting crazy one day?
im a sadist
i know i disappoint you all.
i know.
but i cant do things against my will
i cant
will anyone feel nice or great if u forced them to do something they dun want to?
