Potatoes. :D

teachers' day celebration today.

the talent time performance rock.

haha. mr yap rock too.

had a funny dream yesterday.

mum woke up me in the midst of it.

ahh. i want to know the ending. wahaha.

mum says she will let me sleep and dream all i want tomolo.

how can i continue the dream.

haha.. how..

went back to loyang.

wah biang. only let us in at 1.30

waited like siaox.

lots of people today.

was pretty shocked to see some shss sec 1 vball girls.

wearing vball shoes, so i know. wahaha

saw another shss vball boy. a sec 2 one i suppose.

remembered him.

youth cup that time.. when our boys were playing with their b boys

his team was making damn lot of noises.

we were like.. trying to ask them to shut up.

wahaha.

saw a pasir ris girl. sec 4 one i suppose.. also from vball.

she's the main spiker, of cuz i remember.

wow.. so many vballers were from loyang.

ron too.

but all not my batch.

too bad lo.

well.

many ppl had changed.

changed for good , changed for bad.

seen my best fren.

oh my godness.

i cant even recognise her.

she behave so much like a butch. lolx.. no offence.

she doesnt recognise too i tink.

so fierce.

haix.. became so lian

remember she told me in sec 1 that she joined some gang.

changed so much lers..

currently listening to alex du - tuo tiao!!!! take off

脱掉12123 N 外套脱掉脱掉外套脱掉上衣脱掉脱掉上衣脱掉面具脱掉脱掉龟毛脱掉脱掉通通脱掉脱掉脱脱脱脱脱脱脱

Hey Yoh 穿上保护色还以为自己有看头想要有点搞头怎么老是觉得很笨重

再也看不下去别怪人口太多那是心事重重空气污浊有人太过臃肿

瞭了吧就是想得太多又卡住头差点要本性流露就不要ㄍ一ㄥ过头

七情六欲仁义道德谁不是天生就有 yo baby ya baby 全脱掉　换一套　就地开窍

我们穿了太多烦恼热到自己受不了脾气总会莫名其妙冒烟又傻笑你辛苦我辛苦何必那么苦

yo baby ya baby 规矩太多一起脱掉有搞头一起飙浑身上下清爽畅凉快活着多美好你知道你想要那样才翘

This Aln't About Sex It's About Love And If You Can Feel It Let Me Hear You Say

Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na~ Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na 通通脱掉 Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na

Na Na Na Na Na Na Na 外套脱掉脱掉外套脱掉上衣脱掉脱掉上衣脱掉面具脱掉脱掉龟毛脱掉脱掉通通脱掉脱掉脱脱脱脱脱脱脱脱

有冲动没行动那就什么都白搞没问题干脆我们来分工合作谁要点那把火谁要火上加油场子热了谁都不要躲干脆假戏真做跳进来搅和给你机会放纵拜托大家不要败再没事穿太多

123脱得精光锻炼身体有突破 yo baby I Want You (I Need You) I Want You I Need You

我们穿了太多烦恼热到自己受不了脾气总会莫名其妙冒烟又傻笑你辛苦我辛苦何必那么苦 Yo baby yo baby 规矩太多一起脱掉有搞头一起飙浑身上下清爽凉快活着多美好你知道你想要那样才翘 Ha I Don't Know About You But I'm Felling Good And If You Can Feel It Too Just Show Me What You Got Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na 通通脱掉脱掉 Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na 外套脱掉脱掉外套脱掉上衣脱掉脱掉上衣脱掉面具脱掉脱掉龟毛脱掉脱掉通通脱掉脱掉脱脱脱脱脱脱脱脱

lolx.. i am currently crazing bout this song

addicted to it

just too nice.

sing and listen everyday.

wahahaa. tong tong tuo tuo tuo tuo!

anyone who wants the tuo diao song..

can look for me.

many things had been happening

people might have changed.

i myself might have also changed.

just that i didnt realise.

my results had been dropping recently.

i better work hard.

SA2 is bout in 1 month's time

many things had been added to my burden

stressed.

totally stressed out.

that's why i listen to TUO DIAO!

tuo diao all my burdens.

i had to forget him,

in order to work hard.

i could have done it if i havent been thinking so much.

ok.

he shall be my kor now.

my best kor.

i love my kor!

mayb i can try thinking bout it after next year.

but not now.

i want to concentrate well on my studies!

i had to give up many things.

i wont think bout BGR now.

had been trying so hard to recover from some shock

so i wont tink bout it for now

i want to study hard.

work hard.

many things for my studies.

i might even have to give up my dream.

my dream.. to perform well in volleyball.

selected for THAT TEAM.

well.. mayb that's already quite an achievement for me.

now i have to give up all...

now i shall only play for my sch.

lesser burden for me.

i cant afford to retain..

tong tong tuo diao!

jerry yan's album wasnt too bad.

only listened to the yi gong che.

quite nice.

still preferred tuo diao.

tuo tuo tuo tuo!!!!!!!

today!

last day of common test.

amaths was the killer paper,

and it will always be..

i lost 54 marks for amaths paper.

no time to finish.

spent too much time tinking on other questions.

i am so sadded.

i failed my emaths.

28/60

2 more marks

i need 2 more marks to pass!

sighzzzz

i think i better buck up

must work hard for SA2

i dont wana fool around anymore.

i want to study hard.

i love you samantha! wahaha

oh dear.

have to rewrite everything again.

stupid com.

bloody com.

idiotic error report.

caused me to rewrite everything!

i have a common test coming,

i dont wana waste so much time!

i want to study!

had been sick for the past few days.

feeling much better today!

didnt go to sch on Friday.

heard from melissa,

ms lim was angry.

no body told her there's no training.

most of them are havin creative gifts.

i wanted to tell her.

but i was sick on that day.

i tot i sms someone to try to get someone to tell her?

well.. i guess no one listens to me.

and people.. if there's creative gifts on

it doesnt mean that there's no training.

you should bring your PE attire for in case.

i really hoped ms lim's not angry anymore.

she's angry with the whole team.

haix..

had been watching too much of olympics lately.

suddenly now,

got more interest in badminton.

dunno why.

haha.

ronald susilo was in top 8.

but lost to Boosak Ponsana of thailand.

that Boosak's actually quite shuai. ahah

ronald's also not bad lars.

he beat the world's no.1 to get into top 8.

he had already did us proud by getting into top 8!

li jia wei's great.

she's in top 4.

lost to kim hyang mi of north korea in semis.

today fighting for bronze.

really hoped she can get it!!

LI JIA WEI JIA YOU!!!

zhang xue ling really improved lots.

she also in top 8. but out lers

she lost to kim hyang mi too.

she still did us proud lo.

so proud to be a singaporean!

china's world no.1 , zhang yining's a great player.

she can trick her opponents damn well lo.

i like her hairstyle.

mayb i'll go cut something like hers during the holidays.

hahahaa!

my idols!! li jia wei! ronald susilo! zhang yining!! boosak ponsana! wahahaha

micheal phelps also very good.

got 6 golds liao.

a very great swimmer lo. quite shuai oso la.. ahahaha

li jia wei!!! jia you!!!!!

all the to li jia wei!

Boosak and ronald.

zhang yi ning (left) and wang nan ( right)

Boosak!

micheal phelps

li jia wei

ronald susilo

feeling rather sick now.

watching singapore's idol later.

during tuesday training,

mr njoo was so angry.

becuz most of the sec 3 boys went for interclass

and cher hao quited.

he was sick.

but he still came up to coach boys.

seldom seen him so anrgy before..

haix..

i still cant forget you.

i always thinking of you.. all day all night

my mind is all bout you..

somehow.. i hope you might change your mind someday.

i dont wana be your mei.

i wana be someone special to you.

real special and important.

someone that you want to care for..

all i want is you..

i dun care how you treated me.

i dun care how you think.

i dun care how u had changed.

i just love everything about you...

i really hoped you can do well for your o levels...

i'll be waiting..........

was too busy to blog.

common test's coming.

just 5 days away.

haven start revising.

it's really alot.

the common test's coming so fast.

end of the year exam is only bout 1 month away.

had been so busy recently.

havent been doing my best in everything.

all i did was lazed around.

didnt turn up for certain trainings.

wondered if i will kicked out or something.

but i cant stand the trainings.

this kind of life isnt the type of life i wanted.

it isnt suitable for me.

i dont want to get pissed off all the time when i was there.

i wanted to be part of the team.

if i just skip trainings like that,

i will soon be kicked out.

and i will disappoint lots of people.

i dont want to do that.

i wanted to do our sch proud.

everytime i can only tolerate.

tolerate other people's attitude

how others looked at me.

how others think of me.

how others talk behind me.

can they like.. mind their words?

everytime when i got home..

stared at wall,

think of what's gona happen.

i really hoped that they can think how others feel.

i was lonely.

all the time,

no body cares about me.

i was so alone.

always alone

there. far far away..

today passes so fast.

came home with a headache.

slept till 8pm den woke up.

mrs wan , mrs chan and miss lim were absent.

if ms yeap and mrs kang werent there today,

we would have free periods until lunch break.

we would only have physics!

lots of free periods today.

went to sit beside samantha to talk and play. hahas

i dunno why sitting beside tingwei can make me laugh like hell.

kept laughing.

i tink he's crazy.

and i tink he tinks i'm crazy too.

mayb today i'm just abit crazy.

im normally very quiet in class.

pluck down things from the noticeboard.

and started pasting on my clothes and shoes. hahas

pluck down a star , paste on my shoe.

tingwei did the same.

and we walked around like idiots.

i tink i can sit with samantha forever. hahas

physics was fun.

went on the mrt trip to do experiment on inertia.

tingwei and i exchange shoes.

one shoe big and other small.

so difficult to walk or run about. hahas

we are really doin stuppid and lame stuffs.

and i feel im getting lamer.

worse than the past.

chemistry afternoon programme was sort of boring.

but i still kept laughing.

tingwei asked me to help him draw calcium chloride electronic structure.

after drawing,

he complained bout my drawing,

wanted me to re-draw again.

stupid guy.

now he owes me 10 sweets.

cuz he lost the maths hw i helped him to do,

now helping him to redo again!

wonder if tomolo i would laugh like hell again.

not tinking of him so much today.

sent him a gd nite msg last nite.

no reply from him.

tink he's sleeping.

mayb forgotten bout me.

i really cant read his mind!

i remembered.

we met in irc last year.

during the youh cup period.

our sch was in the same grouping as his school.

our school was qualified for the second round.

and suddenly, was checked and disqualified.

just bcuz the libero was overaged.

vas actually is kind enough to let us just play,

but his coach, micheal ong, insisted that hai sing cannot play.

he tinks that just becuz of the libero.. cchs lost to us.

everybody's digging is better than that libero.

mr njoo just put him in as he's hardworking.

in irc that day,

met him.

was actually quite angry with him.hahas.

i was cursing his sch that day, of cuz angry.

but now no longer angry with his sch anymore.

chat with him.

he actually didnt know what happened.

after i told him what happen or mayb scolded him.

he still dunno.

realised he know benjamin and bryan.

same pri sch.

he called benjamin and asked.

but still dunno.

funnny and interesting guy.

nv seen him b4 until the east zone competition.

was actually pretty shocked when i saw him. so shuai.

but what's the use now?

he's always there.. encouraging me when i quite low.

now.. i dun even tink he cares.

haix..

you had once lifted my heart high.. but now.. you dropped it.. breaking it into millions of pieces that can never be mended

sch as usual.

kept pestering tingwei for my sweets.

in the end, he gave me $2 to buy sweets.

was released at 11.45 for performance today.

was playing 205 with yilun and samantha.

then tingwei and spenser were behavin so suspiciously,

coming so near me and took my purse away.

tingwei opened and distributed the money among him and spenser.

took off my shoe and threw at him.

ended up with my shoes kicking around by the boys.

really had a hard time getting back my shoes and money. hahas..

it's quite fun actually.

tingwei's really someone crazy and funny.

tink i can die of laughing if i talk to him too much.

he looked funny in his red overall costume.

kept on disiao-ing me.

wanted to treat him bubble tea.

but he kept sayin i siao.

funny guy.

we looked funny in our costumes.

oh yah.

i didnt wear my enthic costume today.

tink i gona borrow from huiting.

not getting along well with zips these few days.

cant zip things properly.

either stuck there or came off.

mayb too suay.

was a fun day today.

dunno how to do my homework.

watched singapore's idol.

banana man was so idiotic.

wore that stupid mask and sang

- ring ring ring ring ring.. banana phone -

couldnt stop laughing.

judges were like so angry. hahas

i still couldnt stop tinking of him.

has been 2 days.

i feel like msging him all the time.

but i didnt.

i hated him.

i loved him.

im just too confused.

i wanted to forget him.

it's hard.

really hard.

kept tinking of him,

all day

all night.

my mind is full of his images.

still remembered,

that day.. after sports carnival.

rushed to cca branch.

nv been there b4.

tried my luck.

i reached there.

it was raining heavily.

walked into the park, which is the wrong way.

walked into the carpark.

correct place but was so big.

was drenched in the rain while lookin for the vball courts.

saw micheal ong.

followed him.

went in.

saw my school around doing warm-up.

saw chungcheng high vs zhenghua sec.

went there just to see him play ,

giving the excuse im supporting my sch.

it's all becuz of him that,

i decided to try my luck to go there,

to be drenched in the rain,

to find all ways to get there just to see him.

now, it can only remain as a memory in me.

it wont happen anymore.

i can only cherish this memory in me.

i wanted him so much.

should i just wait or forget bout him?

you had once lifted my heart high.. but now.. you dropped it.. breaking it into millions of pieces that can never be mended...

hmm recently quite alot of things happen

had been slacking alot in both studies and vball

everyone can see how slack i am

i dun perform at all during trainings

all the balls either went out or into the net

skip the rehearsal at downtown east

got scoldings from a stupid and unreasonable teacher

she's so vain

tinks that our class is so good to do everything

so she volunteered us to perform

she wants other people to have a good impression of her.

i cant stand her anymore.

just had a nightmare bout her last night.

it would always be a nightmare if i dreamt of her!

skip trainings

not doing homework

dreaming in class

all i did was sleep and play and shop

i am really getting lazier

lazy to exercise

starting to hate lots and lots of people

bitches

hyprocrites

backstabbers

unreasonable people

people who thinks they are so great

people who are self-centered

people who just anyhow shouts at me for no reasons

people who just blame me for everything that is caused

ALOT OF PEOPLE

after seeing that msg from you

i was so confused

you had broken all the trust i had in you

but

i knew

this would happen to me someday

like what happened to someone

i knew it.

but why am i still so confused?

dreamt of you last night

whatever i go,

i would see you.

but you just avoiding me in the dream.

mayb it's just like the reality.

you mean you were my kor all the while?

i dun believe

i was just asking if you could be my kor back

and you said that you were my kor all the while

i thought you were someone esle

whom i care and love so much

all along.. you had been lying to me

lying to me for so long.

i was hoping that we could get along better

when i saw your msg yesterday,

my heart had died,

my dreams had all been shattered,

my hopes had all vanished.

once u had lifted my heart so high,

now u had dropped it,

breaking it into millions of pieces,

that couldnt be mend back.

it has all been a dream to me..

a dream that you could be with me forever

now it's a dream that can never come true

it's impossible to come true anymore....

you knew you meant alot to me

but you just kept lying

kept lying to me

you thought that i dun know anything bout you

you thought i was hidden in the dark all along

but i knew alot bout you

what happened during that vball nationals period

you seemed to be so nice to me

but i knew you were with another girl

i didnt blame that girl

cuz i found out whatever i want to know from her

and i knew it's wasnt her fault

i didnt blame you

in fact , i tried so hard to ask myself to give you another chance,

to try to trust you another time.

i did.

but again,

now,

you disappointed me again..

Are your words all lies or the truth?

I am always hidden in the dark..

why....

everytime when you did not reply my msg,

i would tell myself that you are busy

but i knew u might be msging another girl

this is your o level year..

i knew it's important

i trusted you

i could wait

but now.. i tink i couldnt..

my dreams had all been shattered into pieces by you!

you wont know how i'm feeling right now

you wont.. you wont..

i shall never forget you......